I Hate Reading

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Childhood was over and I was in school I need to read books and write exams Teachers and parents made it painful for me. I hate reading, I wanted to quit reading but the only solution was to get a job.

I got the job in IT and I have to read more technology books than I read in my school & college Initially, I enjoyed it but when I realized these people are writing more books every day than I can read in my whole life. I hate reading I wanted to quit software development.

I realized management is easy one become boss just by reading a couple of books and having an MBA degree. So, I entered in the management profession Life was tougher, there is no end of theories, methodologies, frameworks, principles, processes, models, bodies of knowledge. One has to read all that and apply But, for that, you need to read human behavior, the behavior of my customers, my team, my management and competitors. In management, I also have to become responsible for the work of my team and without reading the human mind it was not possible I am a lazy reader and I hate reading

But after reading hundreds of book, I wanted to quit management.

People told me to become a religious person, You have to read only one book and life will be cool Being Hindu I read Bhagwat Gita and thought I can settle now But to my horrible imagination Hinduism has so many religious books Which entire management profession do not have and on top of that in the Sanskrit language I read many books and became tired of reading. There was no sense of accomplishment. So, I wanted to quit reading.

In 2018 I thought Artificial Intelligence is a new field I have to read less here so let me move to AI I started my journey in AI And to my disappointment To understand AI, I have to understand everything from my school’s mathematics, Everything of my technology career, Everything of management and Everything of business processes. From which I was running away Is running behind me. On top of that this field is changing so fast that it is driving me crazy.

With technology, a change has come, I need not read much If I can listen, observe, analyze, apply and bring change Then I can avoid reading.

I am a lazy reader and a person who hates reading But, I have to read thousands of books on a different subject because of my need What is the result?

Now I am realizing that I don’t anything! On top of that when I see happy people around I feel why to read all this? One can be happy even without knowing anything. I heard ignorance is bliss!

Then I realized it was not about happiness or bliss of life But to swim in the ocean of my own ignorance Trying to touch the boundary of infinite ignorance Infinity does not have a boundary So keep swimming your whole life in this dark ocean.

But after knowing the immensity of my ignorance I started feeling, yes this is knowing.

And life is about knowing that ONE who knows everything even without any struggle. Knowing that I am that knower of everything. I am that knower who knows about the ignorance That knower who is is taking rest in the physical body, social body, and cosmic body That knower which is traveling in the dark ignorance of all the bodies. And that knower who will exit from this physical body one day. But will exist always as a part of the social and cosmic body.

O Pratibimba, to experience this kind of knowing do I need to read further?

Yours Truly Hari Om Tat Sat